Lately its been a drag and drain on the energy surrounding me. Usually when things gets really crazy, I go and sit out at my favorite place. Know the kind I mean..the place where you walk with bare feet and feel the connection with mother earth and one with the universe? I have such a place near by. It is the Shiloh national battlefield. I know some might think that a civil war battlefield might be a strange place to go and find center, but for me, it speaks to my spirit like very few places. I love to go and walk though the cemetery, just feeling the soft energy flow and wander through to the water’s edge. I know the history of the Union boats coming up the waterway and the huge battles that ensued upon their landing, but water has always called me and the serene scene that surrounds me there blows the cobwebs out of my head, allowing me to pull inside and shift things to breathe a little easier. One of my other favorite place to go there is under the cherry trees in the orchard a couple miles down the road within the park, It is said that in the battle, the cherry blossoms flew like snow as they were tugged from their branches amidst the volley of musket balls.Now as one sits under the shade of the trees, and smell their sweet blooms, it is hard to imagine something so harsh as war. I can feel the soulful energy of the spirits who lost their lives their and their sense of sadness at the loss of life. But then too, in the renewal and growth of the trees is the promise of new life and renewal ..and that is why I am here. To renew spirit, recharge my batteries so to speak so that I can once again get back to the work I am supposed to be doing. We all need sanctuary..that place where we can just brush off the daily grind and energy dust from others. One cant help but collect some of it as we go through our daily routines..its almost inevitable, but we dont have to keep it. Sometimes when we deal with things daily, like chronic illnesses, family issues, etc, it can bog us down. So when you feel like things are too much..go and seek out your place to just let go…recenter, recharge then get back to work

Last night I was reading on Pagan Mystics board about Cerunnos,whether he was in fact deity or not. It was a great discussion, full of knowledge and proof of what people were speaking about. Nice conversation actually. But in enters the fluffy asshat, Sean. The first thing he states is that the god(?) in question has worshipers, answers prayers and to suggest he not be up to our standards of scholarship not be a god is suicidal. Now first lets just say that in this day and age…I dont know anyone who worships Cerunnos as deity solely in their practice, and expects him to answers prayers. and his use of the word scholarship(which he misspelled)was incorrect. So he was asked to explain..twice. So again he says that many feel the gods work for them, and that scholarship is worth more than belief. Ok..I had heard enough, so out comes my snarky self., First I lit in that the term was misused..scholarship pertains to financial support while one is learning. One can be scholarly whilst learning. and as for expecting the gods to work for us? I’m sure that caused laughter somewhere among the deities. Really? One can petition for your desires to be obtained(its done as such on many paths), but you cant just order things to be done because you say so. Or I’m thinking we would all be having some cool shit. I agree that knowledge is power. One learns all they can about your path, yourself and history so as to not make you look so ignorant. Did he leave? umm..no. he then pointed out that Cerunnos poked a hole in the weather and one place had sun while there was rain all around. Yeah..ya’ll read correctly, and I can hear the laughter now. My response? Weather patterns happen all the time..its called “scattered showers”..a natural phenomena.. its obvious you have lived in fluff land too long..gathering up enough lint to catch the dryer on fire.’ I had never heard of the god in question controlling the weather actually…that would have been Zeus..another set of pantheon altogether..Cerunnos is Celt, Zeus from the Greek. Sometimes one hears some crazy shit on these boards. Was Sean done? Sadly no. He claimed to have been dyslexic so had problems spelling(in truth only word misspelled was scholarship), and yet had a genius IQ. I laughed, told him that did not excuse ignorance and go back and read the thread because he might have learned some things. That effectively shut him up, and others could go back to having their discussion. Now here is my thing. I could pass off my snarkiness as I was drinking last night, yeah..I do that from time to time, but those of you who know me well, know that I despise ignorance. If one is going to jump right into an intellectual conversation, and you voice an opinion, make sure  that what you state is in fact opinion rather than a bold statement and pass it off as fact. And if one is going to lay claim to having a genius IQ, then act like you have some intelligence. I myself have enough intelligence to know what my limits are. Can I carry on an intellectual conversation? Most of the time.. if I know enough about the topic at hand..Contrary to what many think, I don’t know everything about everything..Am I above having a little fun with some things? Nope..After all, life is too serious to stick to the mundane. Unfortunately one sees too many people running around trying to prove how intelligent they are, speaking on several different subjects when in actuality, they show just how much they have to learn. I am for learning every day. I learned from the thread in question..It had a lot of info that I had not read before, other things to consider. I like conversations like that. I enjoy intelligent conversations with people who back their shit up…Not some asshat coming in and throwing fluff on the floor and demanding we view it as a mohair carpet. Not happening..Not from my perspective anyway. Intelligent Quotients are nothing more than a number..a tool used to measure for those who hang their lives on such. For me..I have met people who’s IQ were in the stratosphere and yet could not comprehend the common sense in picking up after themselves. Truthfully numbers do not measure how intelligent you are, but how you retain such knowledge and function on a daily basis. I know people who have disabilities, that on face value, society would place in a corner somewhere, and yet they have the ability to see people for who they really are and do things that others thought were an impossibility for them. So who in fact was “genius” there? The ones who dismissed such a person, or the one who defied those odds and did what they felt inspired to do? I’m going with the latter. We are the only ones who limit ourselves. If we think that we are unable to learn something, do something..whatever it may be..then we have already lost the war. Knowledge is power..but for one to access that power, one has to be ready to fail..Fail? Yep…fail. We dont always get it on the first try you know..Sometimes we have to pick ourselves up, reassess the issue at hand and try something else to achieve that goal. That is the real power.

I often see, hear, read things that make me want to go hmm..You know the ones..the ones that make you want to either slap the other person involved and say “”wtf have you been smokin’? So this little blog here…..yeah that’s what this is for..A place for me to vent, rant and otherwise yell about things that can only be described as ignorance of our society. So if by chance, you’ve meandered this way and found yourself entangled in my webs…relax, hang out, and drop me a line . Peace out!