The universe never cease to amaze me in the way balance is achieved. In my busy running around of making sure the princess has all she needs and is healthy while her mom works, I got hit with 2 pieces of news. One friend lost her mom today. Wasnt unexpected..she has been ill for almost a year now, but still my heart grieves for her and her family in their loss. The other news came from another friend who had a health scare and the test results came back in her favor. I am excited about this because she has enough on her plate. I am reminded of the balance upon reflection of these two events, Death/life, happy/sad, everything that exemplifies what the universe is about. We dont often stop and look for these happenings in our lives, and its not often that one gets both halves in one day. Kind of makes our mundane day to day problems of “I didnt sleep well”, “I am in pain” etc..(endless list here) seem insignificant when we get to see both halves of the universe presented to us in a big way. I could whine about things that go wrong in my life, but what would be the point? I know that eventually there will be balance and I will not feel so stressed. To my friend Jan..I wish you blessings of peace. may you find solace in the love that surrounds you. To my friend Sunshine…I rejoice with you and am grateful that things are being reaffirmed in your life. Love you both.

OMFG I have run into the weirdest people as of late. Is it the heat making them act so intelligence challenged or what? I go and have a pleasant playdate with the princess in the Buffalo Park in Tupelo. She loved it, we had a great time.(pix posted on FB) On to lunch after major hand washing since she actually got to feed said animals which was very cool..where else you gonna talk to a water buffalo named Cheech? We get to the restaurant, where they have a great buffet usually, and our waitress seemed a little harried, so finally after getting drinks, we go get our food. Now it was hot(indexes at 112), so Brae and I got drinks before leaving the park..her mother did not, so she drank hers rather quickly, and we asked the waitress in passing if we could get another. “Sure” is her response, on she goes..gets the pitcher of tea, serves 2 others in another section and replaces said pitcher without returning to our corner. So I see her clearing a table a table close by us, and I ask..”Can we get some more tea?”..She again says “sure”..I say…”that’s what you said 5 minutes ago”..So she goes and gets the tea..gets in my daughter’s face, and says “you want some tea?”..Anyone knowing Robyn knows that isnt a good thing, getting close enough to be hit..but she just said yes, and the woman, looked at me and said”I’ve been so busy..will you forgive me today”..Umm yeah, Brigid’s cross around my neck in plain view,pagan heart that is in no mood for stupidity and my son in law on the other side who has been on the receiving end of ass kickings from me(I call him yankee trash when I am pissy) is trying not to laugh..I just look at her. She walks away to finally give table on other side their drinks which they had been trying to get since they sat down. Then she is stupid enough to come back!!! SIL is about to lose it, because hello, I thought I made it clear I wasnt happy with her service to start with..and proceeds to tell me that she has this whole section etc etc. Now anyone who knows me, and those who dont soon learn. I do NOT buy excuses from anyone as to why they cannot accomplish what they are supposed to do. I can accept that sometimes things happen beyond our control, but to not do your job because what you have to do is expected of you..well….suck it up cupcake. I look at the woman like she has gone mental, and tell her..sorry, it’s your job, no excuses..turn back to my meal, and tell my daughter to finish up because we won’t be staying long,lol. So we leave…but I’m still ticked, so I left nice message for them at their corporate office. This was just ridiculous. Then we get home, the princess goes out and talks with kids across the street, and they again invite her to church. FFS..She is 5..has no clue that their brand of fundamental rhetoric is cult-like and that they would indeed tell her nana (not to her face of course)that she is going to hell..if such a place existed. I dont go out of my way to antagonize people, and even though I disagree with my neighbors beliefs, I am not rude to them, and dont mind the kids playing together. What I do mind is that they feel the need to “collect” every child not affiliated with a church of some kind because that is how they are going to ‘save” the world. My princess knows her nana does magic..She wants to “say the words”..and truthfully, sometimes her little positive self is a boost in what I am working. We light candles as I explain what the color means and whom I am lighting for..She loves when we light for Sunshine…she says it looks lovely..I tell her its full of love for our friend. She likes that. I want her to grow up knowing that people are entitled to their own beliefs without having to be collected as if they are in need of being saved from the big bad world. We live here..it’s our job to make it more positive..without excuses as to why we can’t.

Well, let me just preface that question with a “it depends upon how pissed off I am today”… umm yeah that was joke..or was it? .I was reading today on pagan boards ..One question today was :”Is there color in magic”? I’ve read so many of the …if one violates harm none or does a ‘death spell”..(yeah they exist..dont know of anyone who has successfully done one)*shrugs* just saying…then that is “black” magic, and against all witches principles. Says who? It all comes down to one’s own personal code of ethics. In wicca, which Gardner set up and made up the terms “harm none” and the “3-fold law” in the 50′s, people refuse to evolve past that which served for a time. I keep hearing all the time that one can be wiccan and not be initiated(which is a whole nother blog in itself), then why would you constantly stick to that which is obviously made up fluff? Personally, I think that old Gerald and his co-horts pushed the envelope of what was the norm back in the day and was afraid to cross over that line in the sand they drew for themselves, so it kind of became “law”. Now, many speak of Crowley who started the Golden Dawn, and had great influence on many people, including Gardner, David Bowie, Ozzy Osbourne among others,as one who practiced “black” magic, because his made up prose was “do as you will”. I basically like his better because it essentially says, if you can live with it, go ahead and do it. It is your personal responsibility..your own personal line in the sand. There,in truth, is no color to magic. It all comes down to the one who is practicing. (And yes, I spelled it magic..because its pretentious to add the “k” or “j” like some do’..its a manipulation of energy people, no matter how you spell it). Nature is made up of balanced symmetry. One has to have light to balance out the shadows. So why would you limit yourself to not walking down both halves of self? We all have a shadow side..that part that we keep hidden from others, the one that we sometimes think that if we let others see, they would either run screaming the other way, or hide in the corner whimpering at what they found there. Sometimes we have to reach inside that other half to allow us to move forward on our paths. I used to be afraid of that side,,all the anger that resides there about life, but now I know that I can use that at will to achieve my goals. Some divide this as “right hand path vs left hand path..black/white..and yet I have found that life is not absolutes. It has many shades of gray and what I would do, you might not, and vice versa. In my opinion, which in this blog is only one that counts, I feel that too many people get hung up on all the labels of what is and is not good/evil. do I believe that there are things out there beyond redemption? hell to the yeah. Do I think that there are things that I would not do to someone or for someone when working….my personal ethics say I have to leave them breathing…:)…Its time to stop trying to define what magic is or isnt ..It all comes down to your own personal yardstick, and if you can live with it…more power to you.
Peace out……

Ok, ya’ll know how I am, perusuing pagan pages and such, reading..from some pretty awesome people by and large, and yet every now and again, so stupid fucktard opens his mouth..and voila! a new blog is born,lol
Things is, someone asked why pagan peeps prefer to go under a pseudonym when they are either online or meeting within confines of pagan communities. Now the short version of that is that sometimes, its more for protection, because some employers, family etc would not understand our chosen spiritual path. Much like people who were executed in the 1600s who were not witches, the same still applies. Still others use it as definition of who they are spiritually and still others use it as more of a “working title”. Yet this fucktard I speak of throws in race..RACE!!! in this day and age..we STILL have to speak of race issues. Living in the south, I get a lot of grief because truthfully, people dont know what to make of me. Then they get to know me a little better..read few of my writings and decide..hmm, ok, she’s not what I thought. Now I know that in the “real” world this crap still exists, but I would hope that in the pagan community this could be put to rest..apparently not. Then we get the little fluff without a clue who states that “the goddess loves us all, no matter what outsiders think” WTF!?!?!? Did she not just read and comment on the same thread I was at? Did she not see the slam directed at one of the wisest black women I know? Yeah, in truth, the comment in utopia would be ideal, but hello..earth to fluff without a clue..this is the real world, even online people are the same. In fact, they have a tendency to say things and behave worse because of the anonymity one gets. A feeling of self-superiority to do what one desires without being held accountable. They slur against race, sexuality, economic standings..whatever floats their boat without feeling the ramifications of the pain they just inflicted. It makes me want to puke. How dare they pollute the air of where I am, and hurt others I respect? I would hope that one day in the not too distant future, my princess and her cousins will not know what this crap is, or have to deal with it. In the mean time, I am going to protect them all I can and may the gods have mercy upon those who decide to pollute that sanctuary I create with their hateful energy…it will not be a pretty sight when I am through with them.

Seriously..wtf is wrong with people? Do they go out of their way to write blogs and post and hope that nobody sees their crap? They spout rubbish as truth and then wonder why nobody wants to take anyone who claims the label “pagan” seriously. I read a blog tonight that compared pagan/christians as like comparing apples to toasters. Are you serious? They claim that personal experience trumps anything dealing with education of your path. That would be UPG or Unverified Personal Gnosis. There are no authoritative texts..and on that she is correct, however, there are plenty of info around for one to at least educate yourself in what it is you would like to believe in. She thinks that looking for common ground between paths is a useless venture. I disagree. why, you may ask. Respect!!! We keep looking for what makes us different…Across the world, people see color, faith, sexuality, etc. why not look for some commonalities? We are one race…HUMAN. Paganism is not ONE path, but as I’ve stated before, an “umbrella” term for many other paths. I was reading this hot mess when it struck me…damn! This woman is serious in what she is writing here. How silly for someone to be that naive in their thinking that paganism is a faith unto itself. And what is truly sad is that she is teaching this drivel to her young. She thinks that it’s an “us” against “them” mentality and I want to challenge that thinking. We all have to live in this world…why make it any harder than it already is for people? Why make yourself the stumbling block to someone who may perchance have been seeking a little something and run across your trash on the web posted in the guise as a helpful work? Think before you speak people. Stop forcefeeding fluff to the seekers..those who dont know any better to look at you and say “really? It’s tiring sometimes to read a lot of things, and I’m sure others may not like hearing what I have to say..solution? don’t read it..simple as that. But I’m going to keep speaking out against fluff and ignorance every chance iIcan and hope to the gods someone starts paying attention sometime soon.

Peace Out

“I hate pagans” was first thing that jumped out at me in chat today…Seriously funny coming from a Wiccan friend who is great in her humor, knowledge and friendship.  She obviously didn’t mean the pagans she was speaking to, but its funny where the conversations go sometimes. We were reading a blog from someone who claims to be minister(from somewhere online is where she got her license) of a church in Tn.  It was full of southern cliche’s   and shame that pagans would “down” other pagans.  I have to disagree with her.  Pagan is an “umbrella” term.  It covers everything outside of the Abrahamic faiths, so would encompass quite a number of paths from everything from Buddhism to Wicca and lots in between.  The infighting of various pagan churches are much the same as any other faith.  It’s because people let their egos get in the way of spirituality.  There are those who claim the label of pagan/wiccan and are in it to get noticed in the pagan community and make money. I have no issue with making paper, but not at the expense of dispensing bullshit for knowledge.  That to me is just unethical, but hey, if you can live with it..who am I to say?..ok I will say..STOP! That is the reason people are the little retarded fluffs running around thinking its all love and light, “harm none” and 3-fold law is real.  It’s made up… People who come seeking deserve better. Then you have those who really desire to teach.  Those are the special ones.  the ones who impart knowledge to others without expecting much in return, maybe a thank you or a pay it forward.  Those are the ones that should be searched for. But they are hard to find.  I’ve been in and around enough groups to recognize when I’m being used because of things I know, appreciated for who I am because of that same thing, or removed from said group because someone felt “threatened” by the things I know.  It’s crazy really when one thinks about it.  I mean, I have met many people who know more than I, and am excited about learning what they know..no envy, no feelings of insecurity.  So why slam people for speaking out against those who are a. either just in it for the money or b.  couldn’t find their ass without GPS ? To me, its just the right thing to do.

By now everyone has heard the disturbing verdict of Casey Anthony being fond not guilty in Florida.  Everyone has been lighting candles, leaving porch lights on etc in honoring Caylee.  While that’s fine…excuse me while I do not.  It’s not that I don’t care..I do..I mean seriously..my thought is how 12 jurors could find her not guilty on child endangerment for not knowing where her child was for over a month is beyond me..never mind that the prosecution dropped the ball on physical evidence on autopsy as well as connecting Casey to the murdered child.  Anyway..I dont plan on ranting on FB(other than this blog), or reposting ad nauseum tributes to the sweet baby whole never got the chance to experience life.  The reason?  Simple really…This case was so blown out of proportion.  Casey was given celebrity status much like OJ(who also got off if you remember), and I was a little confused by that.  First because things like this happen every day to our children, all across the world.  Children are kidnapped, murdered and violated by strangers, family members and parents.  It happens far too often unfortunately.  So why all the big to-do over this case?  I didnt get it.She was a person of unreknown, someone who  should have never had a child(imho), because she wasnt ready for it…so why?  People all over are reacting..even Kim Kardashian, who’s own father was on the famed defense team of OJ that got him off on a double murder…I’ve seen pages on FB offering free gift cards in her honor(facecrooks asks you report that page..its morbid and a scam), people reposting “letter from heaven..Caylee to her mom”…Sorry..but those really disturb me. First..Casey is a sociopath, incapable of feeling sorry for anything or anyone but herself.  The letter would not move her.  Secondly, to insinuate this child would send such a letter is defaming the dead.  I have pretty specific ideas as to how they are to be treated, and this is not it.  One really wants to honor this child?  Give to your local  children’s charity in her name, volunteer to read to kids at the local library, do “something” that benefits the children in YOUR area in her honor.  That makes more sense to me than what I have been seeing.  Oh..and btw..if you are fortunate to have children in your life, hug them and tell them everyday that you love them.  they need to know that their world is secure and is filled with people who love them unconditionally.

Peace Out.

I was reading a post from someone who wanted to tell her pitiful life story so as to give “hope and encouragement” to others. Yet, she kept on repeating that she had been up last couple nights writing, and that she has Asperger’s..which was her way to explain rudeness. Her topic of the book? How as someone with a disability has such a rough life and that “poor, pitiful” her made it through. Give me a break! She was still in victim mode. She wanted someone to buy her book because poor her needed to be able to share her experience and yet make a few bucks off of it. Sounds like she needs some time on a shrinks couch somewhere. I am sick of people who always want to take the victim’s role in life. You had a hard time…ok…So did others. and yet they made it through. There are people who grew up with an alcoholic father, schizophrenic mother, life of physical and emotional abuse..and yet they are still standing , being productive individuals. There are people who grew up in the projects and pulled themselves out of there and are some of the biggest movers and shakers to be seen in the world..they didn’t resort to becoming a thug, taking the easy way out, becoming a hardship on that single mother who raised them. There are people with disabilities such as the girl in question, and those with more severe problems, yet they persevere. Why is it that one always to cry “woe is me” instead of moving forward? I could have commended the woman in question for being brave enough to tell her story, if it had not been for her rudeness or her victim attitude as if nobody else had ever experienced what she’s been through. It all comes down to perspective I guess. We each look at our experiences from a personal view, so sometimes we do get discouraged. But to constantly stand and wail and rant at the universe because things are so “hard” and life isn’t fair..I don’t have time or patience for that.Yep, I could whine about things in my life..but personally I don’t like to share things like how I am feeling with others…it’s a habit. I write in a personal journal if I really have to let it out, but then I suck it up and do what has to be done. It’s called being self-reliant. There are times when I do need to talk, and I have a couple of extremely good friends who will listen when I get like that..but it’s not often..usually when I’m being hammered from several sides at once. But life is a journey..filled with lessons even in the midst of the hard times. and one cannot take the victim role and expect to have any kid of productive life…you leave all your gifts y the wayside. So even if today has been difficult..find the positive..you’re alive to make mistakes, feel the sunshine and the rain. Challenge yourself to see past the here and now of what is going on. Stop raining on others with the poor me mentality that is your life. suck it up cupcake..the universe would appreciate it.

I’ve been reading a lot lately on other pages. Oddly enough when one asks for verification, people get all spazzed out. wonder why that is? Is it because they are only going on their UPG(unverified personal gnosis)or truly are that ignorant. i’m going with the latter because I have seen some of their other postings that ya’ll havent been privy to,lol. Anyway, one posting was on karma and does one believe..(I dont btw), and someone invariably posed about the 3-fold law. It always comes into a thread..ANYT thread..karma, the ed and the 3 fold law. now I am not Wiccan..the rede does not apply to me, and the 3 fold law is made up shit. I said as much on a page, and said that I actually had a link where Doreen Valiente said as muvch. Enters Fluffy Asshat: well, why don’t you post it then….So I did. What? I hear silence? Where is this asshat’s balls now? i’ve seen his lame t-shirts with the inflammatory slogans against xtians (yet he claims to be persecuted? Child Puhleeze)..I’ve also read his crappy rhetoric on the threads in various pages. Does he not want to acknowledge proof? Does he not have anything remotely intelligent to say? not bloody likely, because he is a fluffy asshat, content to spew his crap and make those less knowledgeable accept it as truth. Well, not this witch. I demand proof dammit!